Saudade e Sagrado
The first time I looked into your eyes, I felt unworthy to gaze upon such innocence.
I’d never witnessed a beauty that demanded so much more than I had to offer.
It would be a disservice to gaze upon such a marvel with mere mortal eyes, so jaded by the perils of humanity.
Oh, what I would give to earn the right to have my eyes join forces with yours and have the morning light dance in unison in the eternal prison of our irises, forming a flawless symphony of war, strong enough to defeat even the greatest cares of this world.
Instead, I’d rather you not notice me.
The complete amalgamation of my greatest qualities stunningly pale in comparison to even a sliver of the corner of your smile.
You are unattainable. I am unworthy.
I long for you with the pain of a widower who had the profound privilege of experiencing the love of his life for days before losing her to a tragic end.
Paradoxically enough, I’m not sure that I recognize you, though you seem to know me quite well.
I seem to have temporarily misplaced my affections.
I miss something we’ve never had.
Nevertheless, I’m still enamored by your ways.
Eternity is possessed in your lungs. With every gasp, you breathe life into unsuspecting souls.
Ashes are your canvas, and your very words disrupt the homeostasis of nature’s order, inspiring new realities.
I’ve literally never experienced a being as graceful as you.
I feel like a homeless orphan wishfully glaring into the window of Toys-R-Us on Christmas Eve whenever you glide past.
Even if I could muster up the audacity to peer in your direction, how could I earn an audience with such a celestial figure?
Imagine my elation when I learned that you knew me. I mean, really knew me.
That you knew my name. That you…desired me and have even sent for me.
My defenses were rendered useless. My fragile heart didn’t stand a chance.
Your affections have betrayed my security, usurped my masterfully crafted walls, and renewed my soul.
You’ve won me.
God I love you.
God, I love You.